Music

I'm really into spanish music right now, specifically Ricardo Arjona. I think when I get very penseative I revert to my spanish. I think although I could express myself best in English, my soul understands spanish better. There are plenty of songs in english that make me weak in the knees, but very few that will actually bring me to my knees like spanish songs will. I think it has to do with the vast emotion in them. Also I think because deep in me I am a romantic and a good love song is sometimes more exciting to me than shoe shopping. I think we all hide behind a tough exterior but certain things melt that away. It sounds terribly cliche but a little something that says "I know you, I have paid attention" makes all the differance, a flower, a song, a candle, a kiss. An action that was not forced or fake, somehting that wasn't done out of obligation, but out of love and want. Actually now that I think about it there is one english song that I always loved, and I would sing to while racing down the westside highway...
Bonnie and Clyde (Jay Z and Beyonce)
Talking]
Uhh uhh uhh.
You ready B? Let's go get 'em..

[Verse 1: Jay-Z]
Look for me! Young, B
Cruisin down the westside - highway
Doing what we like to do - our, way
Eyes behind shades, this necklace the reason
all of my dates been blind dates
But today, I got my thoroughest girl wit me
I'm mashin the gas, she's grabbin the wheel, it's true to the heart
She rides with me - the new Bobby and Whitney
Only time we don't speak is during "Sex and the City"
She gets Carrie fever, but soon as the show is over
She's right back to being my soldier
Cuz mami's a rider, and I'm a roller
Put us together, how they gon' stop both us?
What ever she lacks, I'm right over her shoulder
When I'm off track mami is keepin me focused
So let's, lock this down like it's supposed to be
The '03 Bonnie and Clyde, Hov' and B

[Chorus:]
[Jay] All I need in this life of sin, is me and my girlfriend.
[Bey] Down to ride 'til the very end, it's me and my boyfriend.
[Jay] All I need in this life of sin, is me and my girlfriend.
[Bey] Down to ride 'til the very end, it's me and my boyfriend.

[Verse 2: Jay-Z]
The problem is, you dudes treat the one that you lovin
with the same respect that you treat the one that you humpin
Now they 'bout nothin - if ever you mad about somethin
It won't be that; oh no it won't be that
I don't be at, places where we comfy at
With no be-atch; oh no you won't see that
And no, I ain't perfect - nobody walkin this earth's surface is
But girlfriend, work with the kid
I keep you workin that Hermes Burkin bag,
Manolo Blahnik, Timbs, aviator lens
600 drops, Mercedes Benz
The only time you wear Burberry to swim
And I don't have to worry, only worry is him
She do anything necessary for him
And I do anything necessary for her
so don't let the necessary occur, yep!

[Chorus]

[Beyonce]
(Talk to 'em B)
If I was your girlfried,
I'll be there for you, if somebody hurts you,
Even if that somebody is me
Yeah-hee (break it down for 'em)
Sometimes I trip on how happy we could be
And so I put this on my life
Nobody or nothing will ever come between us
And I promise I'll give my life
and all of my trust if you was my boyfriend
Put this on my life
The air that I breathe in, all that I believe in
I promise I'll give my life
my love and my trust if you was my boyfriend

It's a small world

While studying for my GMAT yesterday I looked up to find my favorite professor walking down the hall of a college in Connecticut, this was strange considering he is from NY and teaches in NY. We both just stared at each other for a second trying to figure out if the other was really there. We both could not believe the coincidence! I had not seen him in a couple of years since he taught me corp. finance. He was my mentor in college, he was alwasy pushing me and believing that all would turn out well for me. He was the one to push me to intern and see if I really wanted to be a financial advisor, as it turned out I didn't like it. He like my other beloved mentor that I met in high school did not think that I would like that career path. I guess they could see my personality would not allow me to be the sales man that would be required of me. They always said they saw me as an analyst and eventually as a writer. It still touches me to think that these great minds, great people put thought into knowing who I was/am and what I would be happy doing. All these thoughts streamed through me as I saw my professor standing in front of me. He lectures all over the world and was doing a lecture to some executives that were beginning a hedge fund. How opportune and perfect for me, they say that life presents things to you when you are ready, and in need of them. I have been in need of some good career advice and there was my mentor. How appropriate. It is a small world, and a knowing world.

Love is patient, love is kind..

This past weekend I flew to Colorado to attent to the wedding of a friend that I have known since I was five. I was skeptical of the idea of them getting married, my friend and her boyfriend. They had been together on and off for the past ten years, and through it all I remember thinking that she deserved better and that he just did not appreciate her. I went there to give her my support and love, but all with an arched eyebrow of resentment to him. I knew I would be cold to him the way I was when I had first met him, still angry for the pain he had caused her in the past, but than I started watching their interaction. The quiet way he stood by her, smiling at her. She would ask him to please do this or that, and he would say "sure" with a smile and kiss her. My resentment started to melt off slowly, but my skepticism persisted until I spoke to her aunt, and it all started to make sense. Last year my friend lost a baby, she was 5 weeks. She didn't plan it and, didn't know it, until she lost it. Her aunt told me how he wept, how sad he was and how devastated he was. She fell apart, but he held her up, and shortly after he proposed. I didn't realize he proposed shortly after. Her aunt and I came to the same conclusion at the same time, the tragedy made him become a man. I have always said that real love stands by you when things are good and everyone is smiling, but more importantly love stands by you when you feel like your soul is breaking in two. Love makes you become a man in order to hold your woman while she weeps. I have always stood by this point of view but had never actually seen proof of it and was begining to question its existance. Fortunately I went to Colorado. She was having a hard time, and he not only stood by her but said, I love you and I want to spend the rest of my life with you, he said this even with her depression, the fact that she gained over 50 pounds, and not to mention her mood swings. That is beautiful, that is what I kept in mind when he held her in front of the pastor and said "I do". As the tears fell down my cherry red bride's maid dress I thanked God for her having found that love, and also for showing me that that love does exist and is worth fighting for. This is a refreshing notion for me, single but hopeful. I now know even better than before what I want. I want all the things the pastor said "I want love that is patient that is kind, love that always stands up for you and is by you no matter the cost." That's real love, and I will forever be grateful to her for giving me hope.