Friends

I am exhausted! Just completely burned out. My BFF came to visit from London I have ran around with her and our posse all over New York. It was wonderful, something I definitely needed. On Sunday we had brunch at Blue Note and Marta Gomez a spanish singer performed, she was great, I got her CD and have been addicted to it since. Although it doesn't sound as lovely as it did live. As I sat there sipping my mimosa a song that hit too close to home, Cancion de Cuna, came on and without warning my eyes teared up Lorena who was sitting next to me heard the song and held my hand and started talking to me trying to distract me, knowing how sensitive the subject was. Last year when I was seeing her off to London she threw her arms around me and declared me her twin soul, and as she sat next to me in that dark jazz club making me feel better I realized how much I have missed my twin soul , my friend, my Lore. I have her till Sunday but I wont think of that I will just enjoy the time we are spending together whether it be running around in Queens or having Sushi at our favorite place in Gramercy Park.

I am taking my break from work and I feel, like running home and taking a nap. It's chilly and its drizzling out. Just one of those days that you want to sit by the window and read..and fall asleep doing so. It's def not a day of working a double and staying till closing. On the other hand I can't complain I only work a couple days a week and on my free days I do all the things I love, I go visit my family and go out with old friends, I manage to go through my make up drawer and throw out anything growing mold...just kidding. I read a lot more, and go out on walks just to walk, not because I want to lose weight or because I want a work out but just because it's a lovely day to walk. I go for runs and bike rides, and sometimes I even go shopping, its funny cause before I would shop a lot more I think I stopped because A. since I'm working less I have less disposable money, but mainly B. I'm happier doing all the other activities. I feel like I'm looking for peace, what I mean is that I want all the extraneous noise to quiet in my head. All the worries, all the anger, doubt, all of the things that make me fall apart to go away. I think I am accomplishing this by my walks and runs etc. Also writing out my jumbled thoughts help as well. Soon enough my life will change and get busy with all the nuances that holding down a regular job entails, but for now I would like to enjoy these fine times.

Best songs by category

Best Sexy Song:
Robin Thicke I'm lost without you, possibly one of the sexiest songs which is weird cause he sings the whole song in falsetto, but that is just how sexy it is. Fav lyric Baby you're the perfect shape baby you're the perfect weight...isn't that we all just want to hear along with "I'm lost without you" It's such a guy song I mean he is asking her to tell him how badly she wants him, but at the same time it's so sweet cause guys need to hear that stuff as much as we do.
Best Romantic Song:

Best Breakup Song: I have two right now, Beyonce's Irreplaceable; and Rhianna's Take a bow. Both are really good at getting you angry so you don't have to be sad, always a plus cause it's easier that way. Both very encouraging and strong songs that make you feel stronger just for listening to them.

Best helps you through tough times song: Again I have two Kanye West Jesus walks, I looove this song cause it helps me when I am feeling overwhelmed at work or with other difficult situations. I sing to myself "feet don't fail me now" and I feel much better. Los Lonely Boys Heaven is also really good at helping me through, I love their call for a blessing from the audience in spanish in the middle of the song. It touches me because sometimes you really just need someone's prayer or blessing.

Best Rock song: Kashmir from Led well really any song from them, I am a huge fan of theirs so its hard to pick just one but that music is amazing for Kashmir so I guess I could pick one...

Best makes me laugh every time I hear it song: Kanye West Gold Digger....haha I love it cause it's for all the dumb fucks who get screwed over cause they think that they could have their cake and eat it too.."She's got one of your kids she got you for 18 years I know somebody paying child support for one of his kids his baby mama's car and crib bigger than his" Haha

Best Spanish Dance song: Devorame Otra Vez super sexy salsa old school song. I want to dance to it in my wedding, it's very sexual but who ever I marry needs to make me feel this ways and he has to feel this way as well. I get chills when I hear the song..."mi boca me sabe a tu cuerpo"...My mouth tastes like your body, "en mi cama no hay nadie como tu" In my bed there is no one like you.

Best Wedding song: I just want to be your everything by Andy Gibb."For so long You and me been finding each other for so long and the feeling that I feel for you is more than strong, girl, take it from me, if you give a little more then you're asking for, your love will turn the key" Enough said.

Catch up

I can not believe I have not written since January! I have no excuse, and no promises for more posts done regularly, I can just post more and surprise everyone with my new found effort. I think I will write today about my pastimes that I enjoy the most in the world. The things that keep me sane, entertained, and have a fundamental part in my being me. My books. The books I have recently read in the last month are:
Alice Hoffman's Turtle Moon, I had not read any of her stuff since high school and as soon as I started this book I went back seven years to a time where everything was possible where the world seemed and shiny and bright waiting for me. It was a good feeling. I highly recommend her books for that fairy tale type of feeling she conveys with her style of writing.
Target Underwear and Vera Wang Gown by Adena Halpern....loved it, loved it! My dear friend sent me this book and I just could not believe how a silly light chicklit book could touch me so much. If you read this book and get nothing else out of it, get the target underwear! The day I finished the book I went to Target and bought myself three pairs of Gilligan O'Malley heather grey bikinis. They are fabulous, comfortable and you could barely see a panty line while wearing tights, which is my pant of choice nowadays. I, like Adena pretend to have a flair for fashion but when it really comes down to it I love being comfortable sometimes more than being fashionable. There is a constant struggle with me and this concept everyday, should I wear my cute shoes even though they pinch my feet or should I wear my comfy sneakers? Sometimes my Anna Wintour side wins the battle and sometimes she doesn't depending on my mood. If I have had a hard week and feel like I deserve a break I'll go with sneaks. I was recently belittled for being fussy with my wardrobe and my general appearance, I was made to feel conceited and empty and just a dumb little girl. The comment stung for a second but now I can honestly say that, that person does not know me at all. I am not dumb I am not full of myself and I am most def not conceited. I love fashion, always have, since I was little my mom reminded me the other day when I asked about this, its not something I made up because I want to be cute and fit into the ditsy fashion obsessed girl image. I have always loved clothes and makeup and I have no apologies for it because I am also a lot of other things as well. I care about my family more than I do for myself. I will always want to buy them something rather myself. I fuss over people and hope to give them everything they need...which I may not always be a good thing. But back to the book... like Adena I went through some sketchy fashion periods, Susan can attest to the fact that during high school I dressed how I damn pleased not really trying to follow any one trend. I don't know if I have found my exact style yet, I don't think I can pinpoint a specific style that I like to follow to a T. I like to dabble. Well anyhow sorry for the babbling but to make a short story long, the book is very good it has surprising depth.
Kitchen Confidential by Anthony Bourdain I just got this one a couple of days ago, and I had been meaning to read it for a while now, I love Anthony Bourdain I think he is hilarious insightful, and just a real New Yorker. Interestingly enough before I even discovered him in his show on the Travel Channel, a friend recommended the book to me. It was almost three years ago I was working at a small restaurant in Soho and the chef was a fellow Mexican..not a surprise and after his shift was over he would sit at the bar and drink Heinekens, and tell me funny stories about his past jobs or of his day..and I like a good bartender would listen along. One day he was telling me how he worked as sous chef to this great chef and he wrote a book blah blah blah..like a good bartender I only half listened to his stories. He took the book out of his bag and showed it to me, it was Kitchen Confidential. I have only read the first couple of pages...Anthony is a great writer he has a great style. Two thumbs up from me...so far. If it sucks I will let you know. Ok well that's it I will leave you with this great picture I took about a week ago while on a run.